I realized that I fear making decisions because I don't want to make the wrong decision or I would just be non-chalant about decisions
I am an extrovert and enjoy being surrounded by people, so it was very hard to decipher that I am a commitment phobe.:
- I cringe at two year phone plan commitments and look forward to my contract to be over
- I did not renew my apartment lease (My apartment lease ended February 2012 so I asked my landlord to allow me to live on a month to month lease even though I did not have any immediate plans to leave!)
- I avoid making plans on weekends with people outside of my circle
The truth is I am afraid I will make the wrong decision so I choose not to decide ~ which is in fact a decision (deciding not to decide). Janet Finch says "I know it feels like you have all these options and when you make a decision, you lose a world of possibilities. But the reality is, until you make a decision, you have nothing at all."
Starting immediately I will not fear making decisions because God has not given me a spirit of fear but of power and a sound mind! I will rely on the wisdom that is within me.
Wisdom is knowing what to do when you don't know what to do!